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That guy is so stalking me.
Aug. 5th, 2005 03:41 pmTAURUS:
Iron bars may, or may not, make a prison. Iron hearts, though, most certainly do. When we toughen up, when we close off, when we shut down, when we lock our emotions away, we become terribly trapped. It can take us years to even realise quite how entrenched we have become, or how counterproductive our self-defence mechanisms actually are. There's now a new planet in the sky and a new spirit abroad on the earth. In your life it will manifest as a new wave of inspiration.
From Jonathan Cainer.
Is it just me, or is he telling me that it's cool to open up my heart? I swear, he's got video cameras and is watching my life. The new wave of inspiration he's talking about is easily linked to my newfound realization that the important part is the caring about others -- not necessarily how those emotions are demonstrated.
Although, I have to say this thing about the new planet, Xena. (How awesome would it be if it were really, truly called Xena, officially?!) Technically, Xena's been up there for EONS. Has Xena not been influencing our lives this whole time? It's not a NEW planet, it's a newly DISCOVERED planet, and I think the way Cainer (no matter how right-on he is these days) is harping on the fact that it's a "new" planet and is a "new spirit" and is "newly influencing" us is utter BS. I mean, I'm not particularly into horoscopes, although I've been reading my horoscope a lot, lately (which is entirely JB's influence), but could he at least be logical about the influence of the planet? I know, I know. Asking someone to be logical about the influence of a PLANET on my own life is kind of out there to begin with, but anyways.
---
JB spent the night and woke me up at 10:50 or so to see if I wanted to go to breakfast with her (I'd asked her to check with me) and we sat on my bed and talked for a little bit, but I felt pretty blah, with another potentially bad headache. I decided not to push it and told her I thought I'd just go back to sleep to feel better, and she totally understood, and got up and went to get ready to leave. And then I got up to go get Tylenol, because OW.
She left around 11:30 and I went back to bed and finally fell back to sleep until I woke up around 2. I now feel more human, am in much less pain, but I'm still tired and I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO WORK.
... oh my God, maybe my shift has been cancelled!!! <calls to check!>
Rats. Work for all BI (bilingual -- what I am) and AN (English) workers starts at 5. Well, that's good, at least, because it means that we might have a short shift, and it should be mostly English work. The French-only speakers are the ones who got their shifts cancelled.
Ah, well. At least my paycheque will be substantially larger in two weeks than it was this week. $215, because of the fact I missed a day of work that I didn't make up in the same pay period (when I went to Just For Laughs and scheduled to make it up last Friday, but then had a migraine, and now I'm making it up today) and because we got let off work early ... not this past Sunday, I don't think, but the Sunday before. Yep, the previous Sunday, I got off at 7:15 instead of 9.
I am feeling extremely lazy, but I must get off the couch and get dressed very soon, because my bus comes by at 4:06pm. Whee.
Oh, and my productivity score is TOTALLY going to go way up, too. It was at 11 on Sunday, 12 on Monday and 14 on Wednesday. Then, on Wednesday, I did eight (nine?) complete surveys (~2/hour) compared to the average of ~1.33/hour. I expect my score to be somewhere around 18 or so. :D
(The score is a number from -50 to +50. 0 is the average. You are compared to the average of people working on the same project as you. To get out of training, you need -10 or higher. I had +27 at the time. My lowest ever was -14 and that was in the first three days I was working. It then moved to -2 or something and I haven't dropped into the negatives since. Aw, yeah, I rock at this job. ;))
I don't feel like getting ready, so I'll inform you all that I had a very odd dream regarding online relationships when I went back to bed. And it sucked so much that I woke up before my alarm and, despite my fatigue, I wanted to stay awake to keep from dreaming that dream again.
---
Plans for the week:
Tonight: work, home, Research Methods
Tomorrow: Research Methods, going out with friends in the evening
Sunday: Work, Research Methods
Monday: Research Methods, work, more RM
Tuesday: RM, then class (giving a presentation)
Wednesday: Much work on RM to finish my overall project, then work, then more RM
Thursday: Finishing my overall project, then class
Friday: SLEEP. And possibly the cottage for the weekend. It's the Perseids that weekend, after all.
Ugh, that depresses me. The only good thing is that I'll see JB at least twice over the next week.
Okay. Must go get ready. Bus leaves in 25 minutes.
Iron bars may, or may not, make a prison. Iron hearts, though, most certainly do. When we toughen up, when we close off, when we shut down, when we lock our emotions away, we become terribly trapped. It can take us years to even realise quite how entrenched we have become, or how counterproductive our self-defence mechanisms actually are. There's now a new planet in the sky and a new spirit abroad on the earth. In your life it will manifest as a new wave of inspiration.
From Jonathan Cainer.
Is it just me, or is he telling me that it's cool to open up my heart? I swear, he's got video cameras and is watching my life. The new wave of inspiration he's talking about is easily linked to my newfound realization that the important part is the caring about others -- not necessarily how those emotions are demonstrated.
Although, I have to say this thing about the new planet, Xena. (How awesome would it be if it were really, truly called Xena, officially?!) Technically, Xena's been up there for EONS. Has Xena not been influencing our lives this whole time? It's not a NEW planet, it's a newly DISCOVERED planet, and I think the way Cainer (no matter how right-on he is these days) is harping on the fact that it's a "new" planet and is a "new spirit" and is "newly influencing" us is utter BS. I mean, I'm not particularly into horoscopes, although I've been reading my horoscope a lot, lately (which is entirely JB's influence), but could he at least be logical about the influence of the planet? I know, I know. Asking someone to be logical about the influence of a PLANET on my own life is kind of out there to begin with, but anyways.
---
JB spent the night and woke me up at 10:50 or so to see if I wanted to go to breakfast with her (I'd asked her to check with me) and we sat on my bed and talked for a little bit, but I felt pretty blah, with another potentially bad headache. I decided not to push it and told her I thought I'd just go back to sleep to feel better, and she totally understood, and got up and went to get ready to leave. And then I got up to go get Tylenol, because OW.
She left around 11:30 and I went back to bed and finally fell back to sleep until I woke up around 2. I now feel more human, am in much less pain, but I'm still tired and I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO WORK.
... oh my God, maybe my shift has been cancelled!!! <calls to check!>
Rats. Work for all BI (bilingual -- what I am) and AN (English) workers starts at 5. Well, that's good, at least, because it means that we might have a short shift, and it should be mostly English work. The French-only speakers are the ones who got their shifts cancelled.
Ah, well. At least my paycheque will be substantially larger in two weeks than it was this week. $215, because of the fact I missed a day of work that I didn't make up in the same pay period (when I went to Just For Laughs and scheduled to make it up last Friday, but then had a migraine, and now I'm making it up today) and because we got let off work early ... not this past Sunday, I don't think, but the Sunday before. Yep, the previous Sunday, I got off at 7:15 instead of 9.
I am feeling extremely lazy, but I must get off the couch and get dressed very soon, because my bus comes by at 4:06pm. Whee.
Oh, and my productivity score is TOTALLY going to go way up, too. It was at 11 on Sunday, 12 on Monday and 14 on Wednesday. Then, on Wednesday, I did eight (nine?) complete surveys (~2/hour) compared to the average of ~1.33/hour. I expect my score to be somewhere around 18 or so. :D
(The score is a number from -50 to +50. 0 is the average. You are compared to the average of people working on the same project as you. To get out of training, you need -10 or higher. I had +27 at the time. My lowest ever was -14 and that was in the first three days I was working. It then moved to -2 or something and I haven't dropped into the negatives since. Aw, yeah, I rock at this job. ;))
I don't feel like getting ready, so I'll inform you all that I had a very odd dream regarding online relationships when I went back to bed. And it sucked so much that I woke up before my alarm and, despite my fatigue, I wanted to stay awake to keep from dreaming that dream again.
---
Plans for the week:
Tonight: work, home, Research Methods
Tomorrow: Research Methods, going out with friends in the evening
Sunday: Work, Research Methods
Monday: Research Methods, work, more RM
Tuesday: RM, then class (giving a presentation)
Wednesday: Much work on RM to finish my overall project, then work, then more RM
Thursday: Finishing my overall project, then class
Friday: SLEEP. And possibly the cottage for the weekend. It's the Perseids that weekend, after all.
Ugh, that depresses me. The only good thing is that I'll see JB at least twice over the next week.
Okay. Must go get ready. Bus leaves in 25 minutes.
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